I'm still feeling the sadness. I called Kristen after lunch today to see where they were and she said they were in the yellow/brown rolling hills of Illinois... that seems so darn far away!! because it is. They spent last night in Nashville, checked out the Grand Ole Opry, which by the way is awesome she said. I had planned on going there with her one day to try and peddle her music/vox but we never made it there together... not yet anyway.
Sooooo... on the cusp of yet another life changing event, I find it surprisingly hard to walk into her bedroom and not immediately feel a strong sense of emptiness and aching... her room is quiet and emptied of all her precious belongings, except for the few things that would not fit in their car and the mover's pod they rented and those that she felt she could now live without. I get that huge lump in my throat, the strong urge to hug her tightly and the tears begin to flow. All the sweet memories locked in my mind of her childhood come rushing to my head and it becomes overwhelming to stay in there. I have to leave and close the door. I know this is only a temporary insanity that I must accept and overcome, but nonetheless it is a real hurdle for me. I MISS HER and her smile, her hugs, her smell, her voice, her presence. I hope it doesn't take me too long to get used to this.
I have my Lauren at home, for a while longer. I don't know what I am going to do when she leaves too.
Life is so strange.
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This post has made me feel very sad... now I miss my boys too!
I know, it's hard to let go isn't it? :*(
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