Crossroads

Life=evolution. I always seem to be at a crossroads lately trying to decide which road to take. My oldest daughter is getting married and I am happy for her, but I am sad that she wants to move away, 3300 miles away to be exact, immediately following her wedding. I know that the adjustment period would have been considerable even with her just moving out of our house and into her own place, but the thought of her being 3300 miles away from me is almost overwhelming. I hope that I can be a big girl and deal with this without going insane. I have separation anxiety issues when it comes to my kids.

And what's even more breathtaking is that my youngest wants to follow her out there. With a husband that I don't really have anymore because he chooses to live with his ex-wife (yes, I know, it's sordid and disgusting, but it's coming to an end soon, something has to give) that leaves me in a particularly uncomfortable situation right now. Where to go, what to do? There's always my elderly Mother who could use a little financial help to supplement that puny SS check from Uncle S each month (I seriously don't know how she does it)... I could go live with her, but would she oblige and let me stay with her for a while?

So here I am, at a crossroads... I'm not so sure I want to walk up to the painted line just yet... that will mean making decisions, but I think it's probably time.

If my girls move to Colorado and if they stay there, I will definitely make every effort to get myself transplanted there. Hopefully there will be a decent job that I can fill that would adequately support me and my bad habits for a little while...

peace